Someone once told me that if I write about the things that are frustrating me, it might help get through some things. This is my attempt.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Aboot 3 Weeks Later. . .
We also finally got my car back. It took forever to get the thing done, but now it is absolutely perfect. Runs like a dream, and I can't wait to have it for an extended time and to be able to drive it around. I really missed having a stick shift while I was driving Tara's car. That is just one more thing that is awesome, the whole time we were one car'in it, she never complained, she just did what was needed to make sure things get done and she has been a rock solid support for me.
She supports me in everything that I do, even when I work too much. I want to take her camping, but don't know where to take her. We might even go to Reno next weekend for the Rib Cookoff. Somethign that I really want to do. Maybe I can even talk her into it.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Friday, July 28, 2006
One Week From Today
Well, in just one week from today I will no longer be a single man. I can't wait! Of course I am up at nearly 11:00pm (which is waaay past my bedtime) writing a blog because I can't freakin sleep. But such has been my luck the past few weeks, nearly a month.I tell you something is trying to make sure that Tara and I really do love each other, cause all sorts of bad are happenin to me. My car broke down over a month ago, blew the radiator, the water pump, two head gaskets, and now a Valve Job. I go to L.A. for training, and to validate with the Vice president of the company, and didn't even have time to do so while I was there. It was quite an ordeal. Then when I get back? I got bronchitus. Yup, sick with a feever, a cough and its 113 degree's outside.
But through all the crap, even Tara's car had to have some work done on it, Tara has been even more loving and caring toward me. There have been some tense times, but we have been able to always remember how much we love each other. I am blessed you know. Again, I guess I have to thank Angie for introducing me to her. I have never been so happy in my entire life. Even when I was completely miserable, and probably smelled like an old sock, with mentholatum, she was always there, with a smile on her face, looking incredible as usual.
She has so much confidence in me and I am so lucky to have someone so truly wonderful in my life, someone who will be a wonderful and loving mother to my children. I got more lucky than I could have ever dreamed possible. Our lives will start in the Happiest place on earth! Right after all the stress and absolute craziness, we get to drive to Disneyland! Of course that means that they have suckered yet another couple into countless re-visists just for anniversarys in the future. Its ok. We both really do love it there, and the best part is, we get to act like Kids. We get to play, for the first time ever, I really get to play with my best friend. (No offence to those of you who have been my best friend at times, but yes you have all been replaced, and I hope that someday I will also be replaced, or have been replaced already (Janet, Jenn, etc.).
I can't wait to be able to be a little kid again, although the movement probably will not be the same. too much of the age left in the bones, but I promise you I will be smiling the whole time, no matter what. As long as I am there with Tara.
Ok. So I still can't sleep, and this is probably getting boring and repetative, and probably making some of you out there sick, so I digress.
It is time for me to start considering how to really make some real improvements in the store. The store's morale is quite good, but we need to get better. Much better. I fear that I am the only one there who see's this place as a career, a real way to get better and father in life. This job could get me places,but there is so much more that I need to do to learn. I am trying to so hard to motivate my guys, to make them want to make this place something truly special. I know that the product we have proves it. I know that no one can do what we do, not the way we do. We have good suppliers, and fanatstic people in all levels of the company. If we could figure a way out of the communication barrier that exists, we could be un-stoppable.
I want my guys to know that what we are doing can really help people, that we can actually sell them something that isn't going to just bring us more money, but something that will give them more time, and allow them to create and share with other people. With my computer I am going to be able to allow my parents, who are on the other side of the planet, actually watch my wedding. And it won't cost anything. It is amazing. We can help other people do things like this.
The only problem is that I spend so much time at work, I can't get good at doing the things I want to show people. Too many numbers to cruch, to much procedural things to do to spend the type of time I need to learn how to make my own DVD's really well, to get to the point where I can film my children opening their christmas presents, with my parents able to watch from where ever they are, or to video tape it and then put it up on the web to share with my entire family, all of our dear friends.
To all of you who have helped the past few weeks, and months with all of the plans for the wedding, and for understanding about difficult times. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I should try to get some sleep now. I miss Tara.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
A New Mother . . .

This weekend Tara and I took a trip to Reno, to see someone who has been extreemly influencial in our lives. Mrs. Angelique Poma. Why on earth would we travel all the way to Reno for such a wierd lady? Simple. she introduced me to Tara. Thanks to her I am happier than I have ever been in my entire life. I get to have the most incredible woman on the face of the planet spend the rest of her life with me starting on August 4th, of this year.
Now Angie went and had a baby. The little bundle of joy you see on her lap in this picture is little Karessa Nichole DePew. She is a beautiful little package. 9lbs 4oz, born on June 9th 2006. I was blessed to be able to hold the little on for most of the time that I was there. I will admit that it made me want a baby even more, but It also scared me. I mean what if we have a baby, and I lose my job? I don't think that is going to happen any time soon, as I seem to be doing well where I am, and they promoted me for a reason I guess.
Anyway, little Karessa is a beautiful jewel, that I am happy to be able to participate in her life. I know that Angie will make a wonderful mother. She may be a little rough around the edges when it comes to everyone else, but let me tell you, she loves this little baby. She will do anything for her and will do a wonderful job raising the young version of herself. And she will end up being just like her mom, which is a good thing. I mean she brought Tara and I together, and that could possibly be one of the coolest things ever.
Daddy, (Mr. Brian DePew), is also extreemly excited. He seems very excited, and a bit protective. But who can blame him. She is a treasure to be cared for above all else. I wish the both of you nothing but the best of everything. Take care of that baby, and congratulations.
Friday, June 02, 2006
Life Continues to Move on. . .
I also have some sad news to report, Tara's little fish whitey that she has had for 15 years passed away sometime last night. We aren't sure why he went, but it was probably something to do with the heat and the fact that he was 15.
The wedding plans are coming along, we even have some of our RSVP cards back which is really cool. Thanks to everyone who got them in early. This weekend we are going to be doing a lot of work for the wedding, getting everything setup and finalizing our Centerpieces, that kind of thing.
I just had to format my system. A VERY large shame, because I had spent so much freakin time configuring it to be exactly what I wanted. All well, at least I have a 320GB HD now. That will make a big difference for us, at least until I can get my 400GB or 500GB backup drives in the system. Files are getting so freakin big now it isn't even funny.
Well I suppose there isn't much else to say, besides I have to get back to work now.
Monday, April 03, 2006
Opening Day
Its finally here! I have waited for months to see this day come back! The baseball season has officially begun. With a 10-4 win over the Indians last night the WhiteSox have started thier Title defence. Today Barry Bonds begins what will be a historic season, only 11 more HomeRuns to pass the great Babe Ruth. I might actually get to see the record breaker when we go see the Giants play in Oakland. That isn't until may, but you never know how long it may or may not take him.
Jimmy Rolins acutally has a shot of beating the Great Joe Dimagio for consecutive games with a hit (56). This could be one of the best seasons ever to watch the greatest game ever invented. I hope that you will take some time and watch a few games, attend some. There truly is little in life like watching a baseball game from anywhere in any park, with a Hot Dog in one hand and sunflower seeds in the other. Whatever your baseball tradition may be, continue them, if you don't have one, start some. This is a great place to take your family. Competition at its best. People playing a game that we love to watch. Something hard, something we envy and strive to be better at.
We should all strive to work that hard in our jobs, working day in and day out to try to be the best that we can be. Not everyone in the world is a Barry Bonds, but we all have a role to play, so play the role the best that you can. Do your best to make sure that you won't be replaced. Make people smile everyday. It doesn't matter what team you root for, just participate. and have some fun!
I look forward to seeing you at a game, or next to me on my couch as we watch the Giants pound whom'ever they may be playing that day.
GO GIANTS!!!!!
Monday, March 27, 2006
Our Wedding Site
http://www.bedbathandbeyond.com/pws.asp?id=JamesandTara2262104
Sunday, February 19, 2006
It's Official. . .

This picture was taken at about 3:57pm, as we were about to Board the Sierra Railroad Dinner Train. This all took place after a long day of running around on Tara's Part. She got a bunch of presents including the dress and jacket that she is wearing in the picture.
About 2 hours after this picture was taken our Desert was brought out with an extra plate and napkin. Tara's final present was underneath the napkin, it was an engagement which she happily accepted, and then the people on our car applauded us as they brought out a bottle of champagne to celebrate.
On August 5th 2006 Tara and I will be joined as Man and Wife (Date subject to change, provided location can accomodate). We had a wonderful time, and I want everyone who reads my blog to know just how incredible this wonderful woman is. She has so much confidence and Faith in me. Her support makes me a better man. Now I get to be with her for the rest of our lives. I don't know if I could be happier, well maybe 9 months after the wedding. . . . .
Saturday, February 11, 2006
EAW
I don't know if any of you have heard of this game before, I am sure that some of you have. Its called Star Wars: Empire at War. I only have the demo right now, but this might actually be something that I purchase.
Its a C&C type game, where you control your forces in an attempt to take control of the Star Wars Galaxy. Its extreemly unique however. This game lets you not only control your ground forces, in battle, but it lets you control your space forces as well. Not to mention the fact that you have a complete read out of the Galaxy, in what is called Galactic View. You deploy your forces all over space. If you are on the Rebellion you can acutally deoploy smugglers on planets that you don't control, if you are the Empire you can deploy Bouty Hunters to counter act your Smugglers.
Its Extreemly interesting, not to mention beautiful. The space battles have some of the most incredible scenery I have ever seen. There are gasous clouds that move around as if you were in real space. Not just that, but you can use something called the cinematic view that will allow you to see the battles from a point of view that George Lucas may have filmed it in an actual movie.
I have not played enough of it yet to get everything down, but holy cow is it Freakin COOL! Try it out! www.lucasarts.com
Monday, January 16, 2006
SuperHero's
I hope that people will respond with who they are in my coments section, so that I can see who is actually reading my blog, take a shot. Its fun (and you know you are bored, or you wouldn't be reading this anyway)
Your results:
You are Superman
| You are mild-mannered, good, strong and you love to help others. |
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Changes. . .

Well Lady's and Gentlemen, things have definatly changed A LOT! Tara and I will finally get to spend more time together thanks to my new job.
I have been promoted to Store Manager of the PC Club in Stockton, CA. Its a big jump in many ways, salary (of course), and responsibility, commute time, and things to learn.
I can't wait to get started with everything. I have already been up there twice and am intrigued by the staff that is there. I have met almost everyone and am excited about the potential of the location. I think it will be our responsibility to change the perception of what stockton is. We have the potential to be a very good store. It will take a lot of hard work, and probably some extra hours on my part for sure, but this is going to be a fun challenge for me. I think that I am up for it.
I mean I turn 28 years old on Tuesday, I suppose its about time I settle down into a career, Tara and I want to get married, and have babies, and to be able to do that I need to have a good solid career. I will need to work very hard and continue to learn to be able to make sure that I keep this job, because I want Tara to be able to take as much time as she wants when we have a little one on the way.
Tara really is the best thing that has ever happened to me. She has instilled in me confidence that I have never known before now. I am blessed to have her. On Tuesday She is taking me to San Francisco so that we can go to the Exploratorium, the geekest coolest place on the planet. Then we are going to eat at North Beach Pizza, some of the best pizza ever made. I can't wait! She really is willing to put up with ME, not only that but put up with me at the Exploratorium, which I am sure will be a challenge.
I am sure that I will post more when we get back from there. I will be taking my camera with me when we go so that I can have all sorts of pictures of my birthday. Brian is going to be meeting us for Dinner at North Beach, and I hope that Janet will be able to come, but she might have to work late. I am going to keep my fingers crossed anyway.
Since I have the day off today I am going to go make Tara breakfast and watch some football. Playoffs are fun!
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Christmas was good!

Its been a while since I could say that I had such a wonderful Christmas. Man I got all sorts of cool loot. Tara really did a number on spoiling me rotton. The picture you see above was taken with my first present my new Digital Camera a Kodak z740. Not the best camera in the whole world, but it sure does a darn good job of taking photos. Its a good point and shoot, plus it lets me learn to do all the manual settings that you can do. I should be able to learn a lot with this thing. I am excited to take lots of photos with it.
I also got a new fleece jacket. Its really sweet its a Giants one of course. I got a Licence plate cover for my car to finally replace "Always Late, But Worth the Wait" that Angelique left on my car. Now at least its a Utah Jazz frame, even if they suck this year. I also got a 12" skillet. Which will double as a weapon for Tara if I am not home. I got a box of Orange Krispies from See's Candies, a really nice Shirt made by quicksliver that feels like silk. Its really nice. I got all 4 Star Wars Movies that I didn't have on DVD before. I got Episode III, IV, V and VI.
I was also spoiled with a bunch of other things, Tara holding me on Christmas Morning. She also got me two little Mr. Potato Heads, that are dressed up as "DarthTater" and a "SpudTrooper". They are a little silly, but pretty cute. The SpudTrooper even has a little potato masher in his hand instead of a blaster. And Granny got me a new school house for my Christmas Village, and Tara got me some silocone Handles for my pans when I put them in the oven when I forget that they are hot and burn my hands. She also got me a bottle of CoolWater, and a Darth Vader Ornament that talks when you press a button.
Mom and dad were nice enough to send us some new cooking chopsticks, something I have needed for a long time. Along with some inari sushi skins and seasoning packet.
I suppose I spoiled Tara pretty bad too. I got her a new bracelette that has a bunch of Saphire's and Diamonds. She also got an exercize bike, some new pajamas, a box of chocolates, a new vase for the flowers I get her all the time, a new purse, and a wallet that will hold all of her stuph that she had in random places in the purse. I also got her some Gardeing tools, that she has needed for a long time. And a new nozzel for the hose which will give her more control over the water, so she can water her plants a bit better. Oh yeah and I got her a lot of Chocolates. She deserves them all.
It was really a good time. We had Christmas Eve with Tara's friend Jina, and Christmas morning we woke up at 5:00am opened up all of our presents, then went back to bet at about 6:30, and got up at about 9. We watched football, and watched my Fantasy Football score as I was playing in the Superbowl for my leauge. I ended up winning that thing and I will take home a cool 500 bucks for doing so. It has been one of the better chirstmases in my life and I can't wait for more of them with Tara. Maybe next time my family will be able to be around.
My brother Link is the only one who called me on that day, except for my parents, who called 3 times before they finally got a hold of me. It was nice to hear their voices again. They sounded so much closer than being in Japan. I am truly greatful for the holiday time. I just have to make it through another brithday now. I will be 28 and that is a bit scary, but more on that later. . .
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Acoustics are FUN!
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Flicks in Riverbank
We went to a restaurant last night called Flicks. Its in Riverbank, CA very close to Modesto. The place sits next to a movie theater, and inside is all sorts of killer stuph from lots of movies. Most of the really cool stuph is from Star Wars of course. They have an X-Wing, a Tie Fighter, a full size version of Darth Vader, a GIANT AT-AT, and so much more.
There are more pictures on my flickr site from the place. The food was also very good. I got to have a Flat Iron steak for the first time. I have been wanting to try one for some time now, and I must admit that they are pretty darn good. They have all sorts of movie themed foods. My Flat Iron was called "Pumping Iron." They also have "Planet of the Skins" which are just regular potato skins.
Everything was very good. Can't wait to go back!
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Upgrades

Lots of things have been going on lately I suppose. I have upgraded quite a few things in my life lately. First of all, IE7 Beta1, thank you BitTorrent. Its not bad, though I will admit I had some troubles with it. I got the download to complete after about a week of trying to get it down. Once I did, being the silly geek boy that I am, I installed it on my system. No problems with the installation, like I had with Office 12 Beta. Rebooted the system and tried to go about my business as usual.
When I launched my beloved Trillian to get on and tell my buddie's about my new upgrade, it crashed. Not having the time to worry about fixing it I put it off. Well I have solved the problem, turns out the MSN plugin for Trillian requires some things that IE6 had, that IE7 does not. Its ok, Trillian's website had a new .dll file that simply had to be copied to a plugin directory. Problem solved.
I can't say that there is too much to call a major change. At least from the asthetic point of view. Its basically just IE6 with tabs. Though I will say there is a bit more lag. I dont' think pages load quite as rapidly, and there are some sites that don't work at all. My intranet site for instance, does not work with IE7 at all. Something I am sure I will have to find a work around for.
I have also recently recieved my Intel Retail Edge bundle. Consisting of a Intel Pentium D 820 processor (Dual 2.8GHz 2MB L2 cache), a D945PSN Motherboard, Windows XP Professional, and a couple of Adobe products. This puts me on the track to be able to do somthine that I have been dying to do for quite some time. Its time to start work on two systems. the first will be my new Desktop which I finally have to replace just about everything.
The new board requires me to have a SATA HD, something I have wanted for a long time anyway, but now since the new Mobo has only one IDE channell, it seems time to upgrade to a nice Big and Beefy SATA drive, probably the 250GB 16MB Cache Drive from Western Digital. I will also need to upgrade my DVD burner as the one I have is only a 4x single layer jobby, and we have 15X Dual Layer Jobbie's for like 60 bucks. I am also going to have to upgrade my memory. Intel has already made the switch to DDR2, so I am going to have to give up my 2GB of DDR400 that I am running currently and move over to probably just 512 of DDR2, at least to start with.
It seems it is also time for me to bid farewell to my GeForce 3 Ultra that I have had for over 5 years. In fact I got the thing before 9/11. Long time to have a video card I know, but it has certainly fullfilled its purpose.
Fortunatly for me, and my sanity, all of these old parts will not go to waste, as I finally get to work on my media center pc. I have been working this thing out in my head for some time now. I am going to need to get a new antenna for my new Router, so that my media server can go in another room. This will allow me to have a PVR without using any silly subscription garbage or monthly fee's. I mean why on earth would I want to pay TiVo to record shows for me when I can simply do it all myself on my own computer/Hometheater. It will be a long time before the thing is complete, as I still need a new case that will not look like a PC, and will eventually need a TV that will support HD and all that other good stuph. First up will be the Haupage 350 so that I have an HD tv tuner.
It will be a long time before either PC is complete, but at least I have a couple of really cool projects to work on for quite some time coming. I am excited. Its the first time in YEARS, since I have had to upgrade every part of my system. And its going to be a long process, since I think I am going to even get into some case modding on this guy. Might even be time for me to give the server a new case. Who knows they might all end up matching someday.
Monday, November 07, 2005
Sam
I come home from work one day and Tara told me that she took a picture while I was gone. She wouldn't tell me what it was, jus that I had to check the camera. So I did, and there is Sam perched like he owns the desk. What a little punk.
I must admit though, he has been a saving grace. He has kept me company when there was no one else around. When I had no friends, he was always there. Now he has bonded with Tara so much, that he is practically her cat. She will never admit it of course. But he sleeps with her, plays with her and never wants to be away from where she is.
I guess he knows what good people are. Tara is the most incredible person that I have ever met. I thank the stars everyday for someone so incredible, and wish on them everynight that I don't ever wake up from this wonderful dream.
I just wish that I could get a job where I can make a decent living so that I don't feel like she is always the one who takes care of me. I am sure it will be ok eventually. I guess I am just going to have to learn to be patient, and enjoy the time that I have given me now.
Monday, October 24, 2005
Freemont Street Expierience
Well we just got back from Vegas. This was one of the coolest things we saw while we were there. It is called the Freemont Street Expierience and it is the world's largest Big Screen TV. It covers 3 city blocks. It was freakin sweet.
This was a bunch of hands playin pianoo keyes. I must admit that this was really fun. We went to the expierience with Tara's Parents and the family of the groom. we got to see the thing go off twice, and both times it was comletely different.
This was probably the best show that we saw the whole time we were there. I will definatly e putting a lot more pictures of our trip to Vegas up here as soon as I get them transfered over to the system off my Camera.
We had some interesting food while we were there, of course you all expected that out of me. The first meal we had was by far the worst, and i think it is what made almost everyone sick. Don't ever eat the buffet at the Excaliber. It was horrible. The next meal was dinner at what will forever be refered to as the "Ho." Its the Westward Ho, and they have a little cafe which has some truly fantastic Chicken Wings. I have not had better since I was in Reno eating at Bully's. I wish I knew how they got them to be so damn crispy.
We did end up eating a couple of pretty good meals too. The Dinner that Tara and I had together was quite good if not a bit over priced, but the drinks there sucked. It was a little place in the Alladin, the Chicken Franchese was good, but wasn't spectacular, but they had a happy hour and were doing two from one Drinks, which was nice, but they brought them both at the same time, which was dumb. Our best meal was our last one. We had breakfast at the Venitian. It was awesome, I had steak and eggs and the best orange juice I have ever had. Tara said the pancakes were wonderful, but the english muffins were GREAT!!!!!!
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Jen Scaffidi
Last night Tara and I went to see a good friend of mine perform at the Queen Bean in Modesto, CA. She did not dissapoint. If you ever hear of Jen Scaffidi (www.jenscaffidi.com) performing in your town, I highly suggest that you head over there toot sweet.
She is very Liz Phair/Anni DeFranco esque. And she is wonderful with a crowd. There was not much of a crowd there last night, but I will admit that those who were there she comanded with a force unknown to most.
The opening performers were not bad, in fact the first lady played a beautiful love song, that I wish I could get a hold of, but alas, I am not even sure there is a recording of that song. The next person to perform was a male, and the only way that I can think to describe him is this: Johnny Cash with a whole lot of Methamphetemines and his testicles in a vice. He was funny, but looked way too overexcited while on stage. Still it was entertaining enough.
Once again please check out Jen if you ever see her coming to your town. She is currently on her way to Washington and Oregon, try to catch her, she is going to be big some day.
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Kings A Lot Warrios A Little
I never meant for this blog to become a log of my visits to sporting events. But it has turned out to be as such almost. I hope to be posting more soon. I have just been so busy and have not been taking many pictures. All well.
It was a fun game. We were luck and had prepaid parking, and got a space right by the exit. It sure didn't take us long to get out of there. Not like the debacle at the 49er game. Arco at least provides you with alternate routes out of the arena.
The seats weren't great, but it was still fun to see people play ball. It has been since last season since we had been to a game. We are really excited about the season, probably Tara more than I, because her kings will probably be much better than the Jazz. Still we will probably hit more Kings games than Jazz games. It will all depend on where we end up next spring. I will keep you all posted.